i told myself not to cry anymore... but i cry again... i really think i am crazy... i really got depression already... actually long ago i already feel like i got depression but i dun dare to admit coze it is veri scary... nowadays i love to bite other people and myself... love to beat people... it is just like depression symptom... hai... i think i really need to go to see doctor sooner... really like mad woman... so scary... just now thinking to die... sms so many people to tell them i feel like dying... hai... once again make them worry again... sorry... scare i will not control myself for the next few months, years... maybe it happen too many things that why i cant take it... hai... why i born in this way... can anyone help me... can anyone intro me to see a doctor... can anyone be there for me... can anyone help me through... i really hate myself too much le... feel like dying... pls pls let me go... pls let me leave this world... pls let me forget everything... pls let me go back to myself... i really cant take it anymore... sorry...