i cry again... i make him angry again... i really dunno wat happen to me... i really very stress... i just feel alone wif no one acc me... i dunno why... i just cant become myself anymore... i really dunno wat to do... sorry... sorry the things i do which make you sad... i scare i will lose everything... i really very tired le... but yet i just cant let go... i scare... nowadays i feel so stress... i dunno wad to do... can i go back to myself... can i... i really trying my best... but yet i just cant overcome the fear i having... sometimes i really wan die... but then i know it just to run away from fact... but sometimes there is question behind... does he really love me... does he really care me... does he really nv lyk any gals... but i dun dare to ask... dun dare to face... coze i love him too much le... tats why i change to another person... dear i need u being there for me... but yet i scare i scare walk along in the end... i bite myself nowadays i oso dunno why... i just want to forget everything...