this few weeks not feeling well... ytd and today having high fever... the worst thing is tat today my fever hit until 38.5 degree... it is so difficult to breath in and out... feel lyk dying soon... sian... hai... ytd doctor ask mi is it stress... and i say not sure... but eventually i quite stress... stress this and that... scare this and that... sometimes things are not easy to settle down... been myself it is so difficult... hai... really try my best to put everything aside... but do u know how hard it was... ppl ask me u still love him ma after ur break... i told them mayb i dun really love him tat much le... but den my heart is full of hurt... i everyday told myself i must forget... but i cant... it is hard... but i really trying my best just not to make anyone worry me... esp all my best friend, sister, brother and family... been my daddy bao bei... i dun seem tat i had short of anything... i wan pda daddy buy for me... wat i wan i will have... but i just could not find the one who really love me as much as i could... i just wan to be me... hai... lots of unhappiness each day... just trying to forget everything and start all over again... life is meaningless if everytime think this and that... hai... grandma every now and then ask me eat medicine... hai... but i dun wan eat... it is so difficult to swallow lo... hai... this morning eat medicine until cry... not i lyk baby is just that i smash everything into one cup of hot water... and it is so sour and bitter... hai... i hate to eat medicine... k la since i complaint everything le... now feeling better gonna go and rest... take care to myself... love myself...
my life might be changing
nowadays lyk every week onli blog once or lesser... hai... busy working... quite stress dunno why... haha... den sometimes to tired to blog so nv blog lo... den change new phone le... last sunday change de... haha... daddy allow den change lo... den going out to shopping this sat ba... go buy wallet... haha... just get my pay quite happy... den everyday work le den back home slack... haha... dun know wat to do oso... den nowadays not so fan lyk last time le... maybe put down lots of things... but den sometimes will oso keep thinking this and that... den just wish tat time can pass fast... so that i can settle down everything wor... haha... den life is not easy to go through de... coze everytime when you grow there is more and more things let you think of... so sometimes so hope that i am a three years old girl which do not need to bother anything wor... haha... maybe this is my life ba... a life which needs to bother this and that... not easy to live on this type of life... maybe this is call fate ba... haha... we cant change our fate but we can try to stop things for happening... but not everytime can succeed... i trying my best to stop... hopefully i can change my life... k la going to rest le... stop here for the time being...