it has been so long since my last update... everytime i update onli when i unhappy... i nv update my happiness here... i dunno why maybe too lazy le ba... i feel so sick, so tired and so sad rite now... i quarrel wif him again... this time is i started it first... firstly, i wan to tell him so sorry... after been so many years wif him and both of us went through so many ups and downs, i should know tat how much he love mi and how much he care for mi... on the tue night, he just came back from malaysia... he ask mi go look for him, but i gif him those stupid unsmiling face... after tat at night i cry coze i thought he still like tat gal... he tell mi nv but i still go think so much... on the wed night, i went to look for him again... he wanna make mi happy but i just couldn't smile i dunno why... and den i hurt his whole heart again... and now he very cold towards mi... i feel so upset... all this is i started it first... and i can understand why he feel so sad... but den i just scare tat i will lose him and cant afford to lose him too... i love him... wad he say is right we going to get rom soon why i still ask him those stupid questions and go think those unneccesary things for wad... dear realli so sorry... he every morning he sure will drop a sweet sms before he started doin his stuff in the camp... everytime went he book out first thing he will come look for mi... and i still rem tat there is one day i went up to do the project and my hp got no bat... and den he try to call mi 8 times but i did not ans... and he so scare tat i will anyhow wif someone else... i feel so touch abt it... i know how much he cares mi how much he love mi but yet i hurt his heart... sorry dear... i promise i will not think so much anymore... i will onli think of our future onli... bao bei sorry... i just hope tat we can back to the normal and u treat mi like last time like this... so sorry... * i pray to the god, pls forgive mi for saying those kinds of things to him, i realli pray so hard tat i hope mi and him can back to normal like those days and he dun treat me so cold anymore... thank u god... *