now i slacking thats why i updating my blog rite now... o lvl result is coming out soon le... hear that is 25th jan but someone gif me the hint is lyk not 25th jan lo... but result comfirm out on week 4 of jan... hai... wish to get my result as soon as possible but yet i scare cant face the truth... hai... after getting the result will be planning this and that... going where to study etc... hai... but after settle my result le... there is still got personal problem to solve ar... i really dunno why i just cant stop myself thinking negative... am i become a negative person le... already lost faith in myself and others... i really dunno... can everyone tell me... he want me to be cheerful... but the things is i dunno why i just cant do it... am i a gal who always gif those sad look... i dunno... hai... sometimes thing haven be solve are hard to change... hai... i just wish i could go back last time de wo... is it so difficult ma... sometimes i asking myself am i fit to be that gal ma... but ans is i dunno... i everything also dunno... dunno wat i am... dunno wat to do... dunno for everything... it is tired to say dunno... or could say tired to repeat dunno every msec every sec every min every hour everyday... but i dun say dunno i dunno wat to say le... hai... i know i hurt lots of people... but i could only say sorry... i just not prepare for everything to change or etc... i just could do is everyday just let it pass... i keep saying last year why pass so slow... but think back now i already free of o lvl... is it fast or slow... will my life forever pass with this speed or slower... sometimes i just cant face the reality coze it is hurt to face... i know myself wat i want but just that could i get it not i really dun dare to face... i just hope that everyday pass with a smile on my face that all i want... i love him lots...