nowadays working as a part time child care teacher... working there feel happy, cheerful and relaxing coze i love the children over there i can play wif them... but after 4.30pm i feel so sian... after o lvl i feel relax... however lots of thing keep coming to my mind... so i finding lots of things to do so i can stop myself thinking so much... learn driving, learn japanese class, learn dancing etc... just want to keep myself occupy... what i wan i will never fail to have... daddy always will give me the best... friends around also will try to gif mi their best... but why i want a simple life with a simple guy who can love me lots it is so difficult... really wish i could find a guy who can love me lots... and not hurting mi over and over again... i can say i am a failure... in every relationship i had never be success... can anyone tell me why... why every of my friend free of worry... but i am a person full so worry... thinking after o lvl i can put down everything aside but i am wrong... i not as strong as my friend... i just a weak and simple girl... daddy know i had lots of hurt but he trying protecting me... but i just could not protect myself... why... in everyone eyes they thought i am strong but eventually in my heart so hurt no one knows... i dunno wat should i do... i hurt myself... i hate been myself... i hate to get hurt... i hate things happen over and over again... lying myself tat i can get over it soon... but it is not truth... it is just a lie... love make people hurt... why i am suffering rite now... friends around me will always gif me their fullness support... finally i understand why people say best friends hard to find... but beside me all are my best friends when i need them they will there for me... but then why i never treasure them... but yet treasure someone who not worth me to treasure at all... but nowadays i trying myself to treasure the people beside me who will be there for me when i need them... thank you all my friend and family... but sometimes it is not so easy to do... just lyk what i thinking right now i can never had the courage to say or to do... trying to use out all my time to do everything just to make myself stop thinking... tears nowadays not easy for me to drop... maybe all my tears are use up... when then can i find back my own self... can anyone tell me... can anyone help me... i need just a simple care simple love... i really dunno what get into me nowadays... hai... why people changing their look... but why their inter beauty will never change... i just wish to change to a person who doesn't care anything right now and in the future... to those people... pls treasure your gf or bf dun hurt them... hurt will make someone sad, unhappy etc... love them and not hurt them... they need you...