just reach home not long... and today whole day mood swing... feel veri stress out... hai... den not long ago just quarrel wif him... really sometimes feel tat if we never contact back is much better for both of us... isitz... at least u happier i oso happier... at least u feel no stress and i no stress at all... sometimes not i wan to gif those attitude... the problem is tat wat u say always so hurt... yes i stupid i dumb... i retain once at all... and from tat time u already think i stupid le... u always think i cant do it... yes i cant do it and forever cant do it... sometimes not i change is you are the one change and make thing worst... sec 3 we still very close... why... coze at least u will encourage mi study and not say i stupid... tats why i nv gif u wateva attitude... now is everytime say i stupid and dumb... tats why i gif u those attitude... sometimes i thinkin why i nv go ite tat time... at least it change everything... if i go ite at least we will not contact at all le... and both are happier le... isitz... maybe both of us is come from different world... u come from express class ma... and i onli just a normal acad and retain student... how to compare with u... sometime i asking myself this... is it everyone is looking down on mi... do u know i do lots of things for u... but just tat i dun wan to say it out... why... coze i dun wan u say i just wan to act it out... i really tired le... in skool how sad i am do u know... do u really think i love this feeling... ans is no... i tired of everything le... but den just tat sometimes not easily to let go... i went to queue s.h.e. signature half way and i nv get the signature and went to find u... why... coze i dun wan u think tat i care s.h.e. more than u... and oso the day before i went to s.h.e concert le and left u out... tats y tat day i wanna acc u... den u everytime say i gif those sian look but the problem is how u wan mi at there hyper alone where no ppl is hyper... i really dunno wat u wan... i really wish to give up... will u let mi give up not... if u dun wan mi to give up den u should do something to show mi... every of my friend say there is no point to be wif u... but den i try my best to hold on but end up wat i have is nothing... is very tired... i hate myself... i think u still love her lots... if i change back to my own self do u think u can forget her... ans is no... u can never do it... coze of u i cried millions of times... and always let all my friend to worry... coze of u i everytime left out my friends... sometime make them disappointed... but when i need them they will always be there for mi... when i need ur shoulder where are u... i really dunno wat to do... can u tell mi... wat u want can tell mi... tat time u say u need time to think... i gif u time... u say u wan stay single... i let u go... u still wan mi do wat... how much i suffer will never more than urs... will u be tat guy who will wif mi everlasting... will u do everything for mi... from last time till now i wish u will gif mi couple ring... u say u will but did u do it... why everytime say i break promises and u never think tat u oso breaking promises... sometimes i really wish tat i never met u before... or never fall for u... all i wan from u is so easy... love mi forever dote mi... but why cant u do it... i really tired le... can u tell mi who u really love... can u prove to mi... ppl say i silly... yes i really think i so silly... why do all this for u... and i get back nothing... but then whenever i see u make mi feel to do all this for u... i tired le... pls let mi go if u really think tat u cant do all this for mi... pls dun hurt mi le... i really dunno i can hold on for how long... i just wish to lead a simple life... i know u busy no time acc mi... but i nv complaint... when u got time i try to acc u... but most of time we quarrel... why... coze of ur attitude towards mi... say the truth if u dun wan to forget her how much i change oso no use... coze the problem is tat u still love her lots and lots... i really tired and i dun wan be a fool and a replacement at all... sorry... i am selfish i onli want to be wif a guy who can love mi lots and no one else... last time i silly i say tat how much u still love her i still will accept... but den i realise tat i cant accept it and is difficult for mi... sorry... if u think u cant do it at all... dun need to tell mi... just dun contact mi... and i can treat tat nothin happen... coze lyk tat i will not feel sad... just keep quiet and left...