just reach home not long ago... just finish upload new photo in msn, friendster and blog... and i oso change my blog song... haha... feeling so happy... love this photo quite much... it is been so long i never taken picture and change my pictures etc... i get my ring le wor... so happy... yup... i change another number... my that old number will not be using for a period of time... coze bill too high le must change another sim card... i will reply sms once i change back to that number... ok... hehe... den going to sleep at around 1plus... coze going to wake dear up... he need to do his homework etc... haha... den i think i going to play wow... then go eat some supper as well... hehe... last sat and sunday having work so quite busy... nowadays i trying hard to relax myself... and not giving myself so much stress... like that i feel much more better... haha... mayb i really having too much stress nowadays thats why feel so unhappy... IT fair is coming gonna work again... hoho... i can earn money again... wahaha... rem to go IT fair buy stuff ok... it is on the 12th june... muhaha... mayb that day i going to pon my two lesson on the 12th and 13th june coze i wanna work at IT fair wor... finally going to study again... haha... studying accounting... ur will surely ask mi where i study right... haha... it is a secret... muhaha... not mdis... not bmc... haha... lolx... hao le i going end here... coze i wanna play my wow... going to level my char... if not forever will be level 23 wor... and pay money to play de cant waste money... money hard to earn wor...
depression
i told myself not to cry anymore... but i cry again... i really think i am crazy... i really got depression already... actually long ago i already feel like i got depression but i dun dare to admit coze it is veri scary... nowadays i love to bite other people and myself... love to beat people... it is just like depression symptom... hai... i think i really need to go to see doctor sooner... really like mad woman... so scary... just now thinking to die... sms so many people to tell them i feel like dying... hai... once again make them worry again... sorry... scare i will not control myself for the next few months, years... maybe it happen too many things that why i cant take it... hai... why i born in this way... can anyone help me... can anyone intro me to see a doctor... can anyone be there for me... can anyone help me through... i really hate myself too much le... feel like dying... pls pls let me go... pls let me leave this world... pls let me forget everything... pls let me go back to myself... i really cant take it anymore... sorry...
last emo post
reach home not long ago... just now inside the bus thinking lots of stuff... ytd jun ru ask mi for my blog link... den after tat she told me that my blog so emo... ya lo... my blog always so emo de... hai... onli there is once nv emo at all... which is last year june... during tat time when i so call wif tat him... my blog nv write emo stuff at all... i want thank you to that him... for letting me write happy moments when wif him... you should know who you are ba... thank you... hai den ytd quarrel wif him... hai... i dunno wad should i do... ya i admit i jealous when he mention tat gal name... sian... but i just cant admit in front of him... i oso dunno why... den ytd read jun ru blog... she make mi understand something... jun ru say everyone has their own memories we should not be so selfish... ya lo... he has the right to think of her ba no matter wad she still is his ex ma... thank you jun ru for making mi understand this... den he oso tell mi that my attitude sucks... hai... my attitude towards him really sucks lo... hai... can i change... den he say he rather want a gf where will not make him angry rather than a gal will do everything for him but yet make him angry always... hai... i trying to be both type ba... mayb be a gal will not make him angry and yet will oso help him do everything... hai... can i do it ma... trying my best wor... jia you... and hope this will be my last emo post ba... can i have my happy memories from now on... actually he nowadays oso treat me quite good ba... lyk i wan buy bear bear he will say wan buy for me... he oso trying his best to make mi happy... let us try our best to be the person which both we want... jia you... and now thinking to write letter for him not... feel lyk slping le going to slp le... night... i love myself and him...
Princess Venessa