so long nv blog le... nowadays veri tired... cry and cry... got too much problems le... dunno who should i tell... somemore still sick... love someone is it so difficult... feel lyk gifing out wor... i really think i am stupid... for doin so much things just for tat someone... sometimes so jealous other couples at least their boyfriend will not scold them... but i everytime get scolded... get scolded by someone who u love so much... i really had no more happy moments wif him le ma... mayb it is gone le ba... love is no longer there... why cant i find someone who can love mi and care for mi de... i everyday is so unhappy... but everytime i just act lyk i so happy in front of everyone... but just tat i dun wan let them worry ar... i know who are those who care for me... and i know who is those who does not care for me at all... friends told me tat he just li yong me onli... but i just tell them no la he really care for me... but actually the fact is i know he just li yong me ar... why i lyk tat say lei... if he really care for me will not everytime scold me... will tell me his problems... will not everytime so angry wif me... but i just keep avoiding all this... i scare i scare i will lost everything... nowadays do wat thing also not so success... hai... when den can i find my dream guy... feel lyk hugging a guy who can tell mi i really love u can u wif mi ma... time pass by sec and not by days... how long must i suffer... all this is i own self create de... sorry to myself... i just wan say i hate myself lots and lots...