today wake up at first is nothing de... no feeling at all... but den later on feel sad, worry and angry... i dunno why... nowadays i started to cry lyk last time before i can get to slp... i dunno why... is hard being back myself... is hard to stop thinking... i dunno why... i feel so worry nowadays... worry this and that... i everyday asking myself when den i can stop thinking... when den can i believe myself and him... i just cant control myself to think... the more i think the more i feel hurt and sad... the more i stop thinking the more i feel i no longer in this world wif my friends... my heart is all wif pain, wounds and hurt... can i mend it myself... can the one i wish to have will mend for me... or my friends around would mend for me... the one i wish to have now is him... the more i wish i could have him... the more i feel so hurt... i dunno why... dun ask mi why... coze i dunno why... i really afraid to walk along in the darkness of my another side... is black and it is dark... the darkness i could feel is just lyk killing me... till now no one can hold me out from my darkness... i dunno why... my friends around are helping me... but half way though i just let go of my hands... it is pain to walk out... it is hard... the one i wish he could walk wif me is no where now... does he know how hurt i am... sometimes i really asking myself stop thinking but it is hard... it is really hard... does the ans he gave me is the true... or just want me to feel happy... i really dunno... i really confuse... hai... before exam scare i cant make it and worry stuff about him and me... after exam worry about my result and also stuff about me and him... can i just lyk other gals to stop thinking... i really wish i could stop thinking...