sort of just wake up... actually 9plus wake up le but just tat dunno why keep thinking want to sleep... so i wake up and sleep repeat the same steps over and over again till 1plus... hai... keep thinking the same things over and over again... hai... miss him lots... but just dun wanna sms him or chat wif him at msn... coze i scare he will think i very fan... den i know he now need time to be alone and do all things he want so i dun want bother him... but if he sms mi i sure very happy... hai... i keep thinking and thinking... yup when 7plus i wake up and vomit for 2 times... dunno wat happen... maybe cannot digest well ba... hai... i think i going fall sick sooner or later... hai... life is so sian without anything sweet... listening two songs right now... first " would u be there " and second " where'd you go "... this two songs got the story behind... hai... listening this two song make mi think more things... but at least the two song can make mi think of the sweetness... yesterday something happen let mi think that is it something tat he want to hide from mi... but if really he want hide and dun wish to let mi know... den i oso dun wish to force him... coze force someone end up two of them been hurt... wish to be there for you... wish tat our love is always be true... wish tat you can let mi hold you tight... really wish he can get well soon... really miss him lots... and hope tat he can hold mi right now...